Random Thoughts

There are always crossroads on the journey forward, some decision non-consequential...and I still don't know how much is really "non-consequential" b/c details matter.

Example, if you go to Circle-K every morning for your essentials and it costs you $4.50 and you do that every day for a year...you're into it $1170 after a year?

I spend $9.99 a month for apple music...so I spend $120 for music?  I guess I have to justify streaming music or downloading 12 albums?

So those are financial decisions I work through all the time.

A few months ago I wrote down a few things that I deeply desire...(I think I lost the list???)

But I few things on that list...not in any particular order

1. I desire a valuable, meaningful, kind, fulfilling, mutual relationship.  It's going to be difficult...maybe more challenging to find something that works.  I like my job...even more so my schedule and income.  It would have to be debt free with a mortgage free living situation for me to make a change. There really are no options here in Kemmerer...maybe one or two, but it would be a stretch.

2. I want to develop multiple streams of income to avoid any layoffs, economic downturns, and the ability to make decisions based on wants, joy, interest, and advancement rather than fear, needs, protection, etc.  I have my wages, but really want to develop real estate &financial profits.

3. Continue to develop a healthy relationship with Castle & Roman.  I've put myself in a position to be absent from their day-to-day activities.  Even though I call as much as I can, it doesn't allow me to interact with them when their emotions are being worked.  It's usually at night, when they are heading to bed, calm and worn out from the day.  Even though I travel monthly to see them, I don't know if there is an impact on our relationship...I'm considering only trips that involve specific activities they are involved in.  A school play, a special athlete game they are participating in, or things like that.

4. I seriously need to have better mental health.  I have continuous anxiety over the status of relationships, employment, finances, spiritual status, and ability to be balanced and poised.  It took me saving up $10K in cash to feel less anxious about finances. But to feel 100% comfortable, I would like/need to be debt free including a house/condo and trouble free vehicle.

2020...time slippin away

Shat! How did March 2020 happen already.

2019 Arizona Ironman? Check

Injury 3 weeks before and wasn't sure if it was going to happen.  I tore every muscle (in multiple places) in my right quad. I saw a doctor and ultimately had a soft tissue chiropractor look at it and do some wicked crazy releases to get me back on track.

Fortunately, I was able to race and finish under 12 Hours.  I really should take the time to write down my experience with this in more detail...

Hernia surgery...Jan 27th, took me 2-3 weeks to feel somewhat normal.  Surprised that I felt as much pain as I did.  Finally back to work and this next week I'll go 100% on training for St. George Ironman.  Only 9 weeks to train and if I would compare to where I was at the height of IMAZ training, I'm probably 45-50% ready.

I have some good workouts in, but no swimming and haven't really the endurance to get anything more than 90 min on any one leg of the race.

Starting to look at investing...

I still have some debt I really need to pay off, but at the same time I've saved $10K and would like to see what I can do to leverage that into more?  The save, no risk, no reward method would be to just apply that to debt and move on.

I'm considering doing some day trading, but it's high risk, high reward.  I could double that in a few weeks/months, but I could also loose it just as fast.

Castle & Roman are growing fast; physically, academically, emotionally, etc.

Castle is going full girl on me while Roman is a rollercoaster of a macho man.

Last month we hiked Camelback Mountain...so proud of them.  They did get tired, but never complained.  Few talks about turning around, but ultimately they choose to summit.  I wish I would have taken pictures.

I have placed my faith at front of the classroom right now.  Questioning my involvement in church.  When I say it out loud, I tell myself to stay grounded, but when I look at short-term, long-term, and issues I have...it's not what I "want" to do as a single person.  Totally different if I had a family...specifically a wife and kids in the house.  I know it should not matter, but when there are moving parts in my life, I need to be fulfilled and there is almost zero fulfillment going to church that is so family centered as a single...aging...guy.

I like to visit my family, travel, train for my races, work, and other forms of relaxing entertainment.

So much to update...